We all have those dreams and visions of what we want to do and what we want be when we grow up. According to society, we need a career or a degree and a clear goal for our lives.
Growing up, I wanted to be a veterinarian. I love animals and I thought that it would be great to actually get paid for helping them and being around them all day. I have had animals all my life but I gradually realized, that becoming a vet wasn’t for me. While I was good with animals, I wasn’t particularly fond of the idea of stitching them up or putting them to sleep when it became necessary. My goals changed.
The list of what I saw myself doing was pretty long. To name a few: a writer, a teacher, a special ed teacher, a psychiatrist, a counselor, a horse trainer, a rancher, and an entrepreneur. Did I actually accomplish any of these? No, I didn’t. Having the funds necessary to pursue these goals wasn’t there and basically, life got in the way.
I gave up on the ‘getting a degree’ aspect of my life and I actually had a few really great opportunities for a career. There seemed however, to always be things in my career opportunities that just didn’t cut it. I couldn’t see myself staying in the same job for 20+ years waiting to retire and get a pension. Working for a corporation was the pits. They didn’t care about the employees. They cared about the bottom line and being in control. One job where I was a supervisor, ended up getting TOO big. By this I mean, I wasn’t able to give personal attention to the customers. I like working with people and when it gets to the point where they’re cattle, being run through a chute, it was time to move on.
I’m a ‘Jill of all trades’ and a master of none. I grew up in a tourist/ranching community and most of the jobs there were seasonal. I’ve never been let go from any job but my resume is pretty long and it’s definitely varied. I think I’ve always been trying to figure out where I belong. My brothers are successful and they often look down on me for not pursuing a career. I guess it has to do with a persons definition of success. In my eyes, I’m successful. I march to the tune of a different drummer. I have lived LIFE and it hasn’t always been about the $$’s for me but rather doing things that are fulfilling.
I truly love people. I have always been good with people. I can honestly say that I’m admired and that I am a good leader. I don’t know what my true ‘calling’ in life was or is. I do somewhat regret not having something to fall back on or a retirement plan but… I’m happy. I’m broke but I’m happy!